Hope Theory

Discussing music lyrics and their relation to life


Strange Comfort

Strange Comfort


Posted on Apr 20, 2015

My Thoughts

I really connect with the lyrics in this song. Sometimes I fully acknowledge my wrong actions and it makes me feel lost. I have made steps towards recovery and progress several times and slip up. Sometimes I find a “strange comfort” in that feeling because it motivates me to be better. But it really isn’t a healthy way to feel. “But what scares me the most is I’m starting to feel at home.” I do get pretty scared of this. I don’t like to feel too comfortable because that’s when digression happens. I want progress.

I absolutely love the line “we are not okay but this is not the end yet.” Sometimes what it takes is honesty; honesty to admit you’re not okay and need help. I reached out to someone I trust today and got a lot of things off my chest. It is very healthy to talk to someone. People need other people. I need you and you need me. “When we lose ourselves we find each other.” I spent two years devoting my life to doing my best to serve my fellow brothers and sisters in the Lord. I haven’t been very good at it the past couple years but I fully believe that when you lose yourself in the service of others, that is when you truly find yourself. We are all living stories and should not give up.

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Lyrics

I know I’m lost with no motivation to find my way back
I left myself down a paper trail of the pages of my mind, now I want them back,
I’m somewhere between no courage among the other things I lack
Lost in desperation where an ember turns to an ash
Somewhere along this path I crossed the line
Broken promises I’ve made without thinking twice
Left my second thought and reason behind
All in the name of making this world mine
All in the name of building my own
Why do I think that I have to live this life alone, I know I’m lost

I know, I know I’m lost, I know, I know I’m lost
But what scares me the most is I’m starting to feel at home
I know, I know I can’t stay here forever, when we lose ourselves we find each other

I find this strange comfort in being lost in life
Wherever I end up will I belong there this time?
So when you feel your heart sink into your chest
Don’t forget everything is okay in the end
We are not okay but this is not the end yet

We are not okay but this is not the end yet
We are not okay but this is not the end

I know, I know I’m lost, I know, I know I’m lost
But what scares me the most is I’m starting to feel at home
I know, I know I can’t stay here forever, when we lose ourselves we find each other

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Why The Title – Hope Theory

Why The Title – Hope Theory


Posted on Mar 24, 2015

Just a disclaimer to my friends who read this, some of the music found on my blog won’t be your thing. I understand its not for everyone, I just ask you appreciate the hope found in the lyrics. Post-hardcore music has to be seen live to be understood. The energy to which No Bragging Rights performs is amazing. They speak about real issues and you can see it connects with the crowd. This one was one of my favorites to shout as loud as I could while it was played.

She’s tired of my words,
Tired of a world that turned on her.
Things were great but short lived,
Now she doesn’t remember how it felt
To greet the new day with a smile
Or a hope that would see her through tomorrow.
“You said things were going to… going to get better.
So why aren’t they getting any… getting any better?”

I think everyone asks themselves this at some point.

I answered with this…
I’m sticking to my words…
Even life at its worst,
It doesn’t even come (it doesn’t even come close),
To the strength that you’ve shown (the strength that you’ve shown),
Or the fight that it took to get you to this point,

Never look back,
Never lose sight,
Never lose hope,
That’s not a noose,
It’s a rope,
To pull you out,
To pull you out,
To pull you out of this mess that you’re in.

Sometimes its a matter of simply changing our perspective. Sometimes its not that easy. But if we can take time to see things from a new perspective, it may be just what is needed.

The change was subtle,
The change was slow,
The change became so beautiful,
Her smile back the darkness gone (her smile back the darkness gone),
Heaven is real when hell is where you escaped from.

Things are going to get better, to be better.

I still believe the power in our dreams.

Dreams are powerful. They are what motivate me. Dreaming and making steps towards those dreams is where I find power.

Never look back,
Never lose hope,
I will never look back,
I will never lose… never lose hope.

I believe things can change,
I believe that brighter days… are coming.

After finishing a song with lyrics like this, I believe more that things can change. I believe in the hope of the rising sun.

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More Than Useless

More Than Useless


Posted on Mar 24, 2015

This song was release by Relient k clear back in November 2004 and yet it still resonates with me today. Sometimes life kicks me down and I can be pretty hard on myself. When one thing goes wrong, I tend to assume other things are wrong with me. This song gives me hope when I feel this way. I interpret “you” to be God in this song, that He promises we will do something right for once. When I feel I have lost all my value, God assures me I am definitely more than useless.

I feel like, I would like
To be somewhere else doing something that matters
And I’ll admit here, while I sit here
My mind wastes away and my doubts start to gather

Whats the purpose? It feels worthless
So unwanted like I’ve lost all my value
I can’t find it, not in the least bit
and I’m just scared, so scared that I’ll fail you

And sometimes I think that I’m not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why I’m even here at all
But then you assure me

I’m a little more than useless
And when I think that I can’t do this
You promise me that I’ll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

So I say if I can’t, do something significant
I’ll opt to leave most opportunities wasted
And nothing trivial, that life could give me will
Measure up to what might have replaced it

Too late look, my date book
Is packed full of days that were empty and now gone
And I bet, that regret
Will prove to get me to improve in the long run

This is completely me. I hate feeling my days where empty. That is pretty much what drives me right now, to get me to improve in the long run.

And sometimes I think that I’m not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why I’m even here at all
But then you assure me
I’m a little more than useless

And when I think that I can’t do this
You promise me that I’ll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

I’m a little more than useless
And I never knew I knew this
Was gonna the day, gonna be the day
That I would do something right
Do something right for once

I notice, I know this
Week is a symbol of how I use my time
Resent it, I spent it
Convincing myself the world’s doing just fine
(Without me)
Doing anything of any consequence
(Without me)
Showing any sign of ever making sense
Of my time , it’s my life
And my right, to use it like I should
Like he would, for the good
Of everything that I would ever know

I’m a little more than useless
When I think that I can’t do this
You promise me that I’ll get through this
And do something right
Do something right for once

I’m a little more than useless
And I never knew I knew this
Was gonna the day, gonna be the day
That I would do something right
Do something right for once

I believe in finding songs that pick you up when you’re feeling down. When you feel down, join me in remembering that we are not useless. No one else can play our individual and unique part. We are a living story.

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The Beginning of Hope Theory

The Beginning of Hope Theory


Posted on Feb 28, 2015

My first concert ever was in the summer of 2007. I was seeing Relient k, Mae and Sherwood. From that moment on, I was hooked on shows. I just kept going to more and more. The Mmhmm album released by Relient k did a lot of good for me through high school. The song that is nearly my mantra I guess you could say, is “Who I Am Hates Who I’ve Been.”

Lyrics:

I watched the proverbial sunrise Coming up over the Pacific and You might think I’m losing my mind, But I will shy away from the specifics…

’cause I don’t want you to know where I am ’cause then you’ll see my heart In the saddest state it’s ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus] Stop right there. That’s exactly where I lost it. See that line. Well I never should have crossed it. Stop right there. Well I never should have said That it’s the very moment that I wish that I could take back.

[Chorus] I’m sorry for the person I became. I’m sorry that it took so long for me to change. I’m ready to be sure I never become that way again ’cause who I am hates who I’ve been. Who I am hates who I’ve been.

I talk to absolutely no one. Couldn’t keep to myself enough. And the things bottled inside have finally begun To create so much pressure that I’ll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps Synching up to the beating of my heart, And I was positive that unless I got myself together, I would watch me fall apart.

And I can’t let that happen again ’cause then you’ll see my heart In the saddest state it’s ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

[Pre-Chorus x2] [Chorus]

Who I am hates who I’ve been And who I am will take the second chance you gave me. Who I am hates who I’ve been ’cause who I’ve been only ever made me…

So sorry for the person I became. So sorry that it took so long for me to change. I’m ready to be sure I never become that way again ’cause who I am hates who I’ve been. Who I am hates who I’ve been.     Share  

 
 
 
 
 
Its hard to let people in sometimes and allow them to see our hearts, but as the days go on, I believe more and more in sharing your heart with the right people. Sometimes our hearts are in sad state, but maybe opening up and being honest will help us in unexpected ways.
 
 
 
 
This to me seems like a call to God. I have often felt the need to change but resist it. I don’t like all of my choices in the past and sometimes even go as far to say I hate who I’ve been at times. But I feel ready to not be that person I sometimes hate.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
I don’t always know why but I do believe God gives us plenty of second chances. He loves us even when we make the same mistake again and again. The important thing is that we have the attitude for change and do something towards that change.

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